WHAT?! I haven't updated in over 2 months?! Whaaaat. Since I last updated, I went to Calgary & Banff (Calgary was nice, Banff was amazing, I've always wanted to go there, but I felt sick the whole time), I worked a lot (tiring!), I had some very successful blood tests (yay!), and my husband finally came home from his 7+ month tour! (9 months really, because of his other contracts...) Yay, he's HOME. <3 AND! And and and annnnd...I had my hysterectomy! YAYYYY! I had been trying to get one since I was in my 20s, so to say that it's amazing that I've finally gotten one is quite the understatement. The pain my periods have caused me throughout my life have been so terrible it's always been hard to describe, but ever since I've had leukemia it's been a little easier to explain to people; my cramps hurt more than the chemo did. So. Yeah. My periods ruined my life. Not to mention they weren't just a few days a month (which is still WAY too long to spend in that amount of pain), but the cramps would often last 2 weeks out of the month, every month. So yeah, enough of that shit! Finally done with that. I got my surgery on April 8th, which is exactly a week ago, plus a day. The surgery went really well, and I only had to stay in the hospital overnight (standard procedure). I was able to go home the next day.
So now I'm home recovering and all is going well, but I've been regressing a little in terms of pain because I'm just so bored and restless and I've been moving around my apartment, constantly tidying up and things like that, even though I'm not supposed to. I mean, I'm supposed to move around, so I do (though my apartment is REALLY tiny and there's not exactly a helluva lot of room to move around in here), and I've gone for a couple of short walks (it's perfect as it's finally spring! SPRING!!!), but I'm not supposed to bend in certain positions, which I can't help but do. The thing is though, my apartment gets so messy and dirty so fast with my husband home now, and I'm so used to my apartment being spotless (when I had it to myself for 9 months I cleaned it pretty much every day) so I can't stand to leave it the way it looks. And I'm just so restless. I know it's not fair to compare recovering from a hysterectomy to recovering from cancer, but I have nothing else to compare it to! Of course I'm going to compare the two, it's only natural. It's the only other experience I've had in terms of recovering from something from the hospital. And compared to cancer and going through chemo, recovering from a hysterectomy is a breeze! I mean, this time my blood is oxygenated. When I was going through chemo, I was neutropenic, I had no blood cells, I had no energy, I felt so sick and out of it all the time. But now all I have is some pain (and they sent me home with pain-killers, of course!), but I have alllll the energy. So in my head, I translate that as feeling well. Haha! I can't help it. And plus, as I mentioned above, it's spring. I LOVE SPRING. And I've been waiting for it for so long to get here, I just wanna run around outside and be crazy! Plus I'm so excited to start this new life without my uterus, a new life without pain. A new life that doesn't involve me constantly curled up with a heating pad and constantly chewing on advil (or stronger pills) and constantly cancelling on people, backing out on plans...a life that's pain-free. It still hasn't full sunk-in; I've been dealing with this pain since I was 12 years old, so that's 22 years now. It's going to take awhile for this to become real to me. But it's so exciting, and I feel like I have so many adventures ahead of me!
Anyway, all this to say...I'm very happy and life sure is good right now. <3
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