Laptop woes

Getting better, getting better...I want to heal faster though, faster!! haha. I tried going for another walk today but didn't last as long this time; just felt a little nauseous and sore. Ah well. Maybe I'll try again later. I need to find something to do. Luckily yesterday I managed to get out of the apartment for quite awhile, as my parents picked me & Mike up to go to their place for a BBQ, so that was a lot of fun! Also, my mom lent me her laptop which I'm currently typing on; I need something as my own laptop is currently being checked-out and fixed (and all my stuff on it hopefully salvaged) by my ex right now; despite me being as careful as can be with my laptop at all times (and that is an understatement), accidents do happen, and my laptop suffered a pretty bad fall on Saturday and stopped working. It's great to have my mom's laptop in the meantime, but I really miss my own laptop with my own stuff on it! I'm really jonesing for it, seriously. Most things in my day revolve around my laptop (all my music, shows, writings, bookmarks, and pictures I like to go through are all on it, along with my NES emulator that has all the games my Wii doesn't have), and especially lately with there not being much else to do, as I can't exactly just necessarily get up and leave the apartment to go find something else to do...yeah, this really sucks. Well, the timing always could be worse. Not that there's any good time for one's laptop to break, but at least this didn't happen two weeks ago, when I was REALLY stuck at home and couldn't move. But still. Ugh. I mean, my laptop is like an extension of my arm pretty much. I guess my laptop is to me what people's phones are to them. Or something like that. Plus, I just had a bunch of electronics break on me this week. This really was the ultimate fuck-you cherry on top of an already shitty, frustrating week! Not. Happy.

Anyway, I'm just really, really, really desperate and eager to get my laptop back. I really, really, really, really hope all my stuff is salvageable; I don't know what I'll do if it isn't. I back up my stuff fairly often, but not every single day, and it's been a little while since I last did so. Also, though I back up my writing and music and stuff like that, I've never backed up any of my games. It's just not something that's ever crossed my mind as being even possible, I don't know why. I just save them to my emulator and that's it. I hope they're all OK. I'm so anxious about this!

In good news, I had some beer the other day. And a glass of wine yesterday. My first bit of alcohol since the surgery! Yay! Maaayyybe I can make it out to a bar or something. That would be something fun to do.

Gotta update more!

I was just reading back a little through this and realized I repeat myself a LOT. I gotta stop doing that! Hmm. Maybe updating a little more often will help with that a bit. ;)

For now, I just wanna say how much I enjoy visits from my favourite people. Yay! <3 On a less happy note, I'm in a LOT of pain right now. Blah. Just took some naproxen & tylenol. Got my heating pad here, too. I'm waiting it out a bit more but if this combo doesn't fix things soon, I'll cave and take an oxycodone, as I've been in pain all day and trying to keep it at bay with those other meds doesn't seem to be working. Oxycodone is heavy stuff, but the silver lining is that I get to take oxycodone. I was prescribed 20 of them to take every 4-6 hours but I've only taken 3 the whole time I've been back from the hospital as the side effects are pretty intense; they don't mix well with another medication I'm on. On the plus side, WOW do they make me giggly! Watching It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia after taking oxycodone the other night is probably the hardest I've laughed while alone in a long, long time. What a ridiculous night!

ALL the updates!

WHAT?! I haven't updated in over 2 months?! Whaaaat. Since I last updated, I went to Calgary & Banff (Calgary was nice, Banff was amazing, I've always wanted to go there, but I felt sick the whole time), I worked a lot (tiring!), I had some very successful blood tests (yay!), and my husband finally came home from his 7+ month tour! (9 months really, because of his other contracts...) Yay, he's HOME. <3 AND! And and and annnnd...I had my hysterectomy! YAYYYY! I had been trying to get one since I was in my 20s, so to say that it's amazing that I've finally gotten one is quite the understatement. The pain my periods have caused me throughout my life have been so terrible it's always been hard to describe, but ever since I've had leukemia it's been a little easier to explain to people; my cramps hurt more than the chemo did. So. Yeah. My periods ruined my life. Not to mention they weren't just a few days a month (which is still WAY too long to spend in that amount of pain), but the cramps would often last 2 weeks out of the month, every month. So yeah, enough of that shit! Finally done with that. I got my surgery on April 8th, which is exactly a week ago, plus a day. The surgery went really well, and I only had to stay in the hospital overnight (standard procedure). I was able to go home the next day.

So now I'm home recovering and all is going well, but I've been regressing a little in terms of pain because I'm just so bored and restless and I've been moving around my apartment, constantly tidying up and things like that, even though I'm not supposed to. I mean, I'm supposed to move around, so I do (though my apartment is REALLY tiny and there's not exactly a helluva lot of room to move around in here), and I've gone for a couple of short walks (it's perfect as it's finally spring! SPRING!!!), but I'm not supposed to bend in certain positions, which I can't help but do. The thing is though, my apartment gets so messy and dirty so fast with my husband home now, and I'm so used to my apartment being spotless (when I had it to myself for 9 months I cleaned it pretty much every day) so I can't stand to leave it the way it looks. And I'm just so restless. I know it's not fair to compare recovering from a hysterectomy to recovering from cancer, but I have nothing else to compare it to! Of course I'm going to compare the two, it's only natural. It's the only other experience I've had in terms of recovering from something from the hospital. And compared to cancer and going through chemo, recovering from a hysterectomy is a breeze! I mean, this time my blood is oxygenated. When I was going through chemo, I was neutropenic, I had no blood cells, I had no energy, I felt so sick and out of it all the time. But now all I have is some pain (and they sent me home with pain-killers, of course!), but I have alllll the energy. So in my head, I translate that as feeling well. Haha! I can't help it. And plus, as I mentioned above, it's spring. I LOVE SPRING. And I've been waiting for it for so long to get here, I just wanna run around outside and be crazy! Plus I'm so excited to start this new life without my uterus, a new life without pain. A new life that doesn't involve me constantly curled up with a heating pad and constantly chewing on advil (or stronger pills) and constantly cancelling on people, backing out on plans...a life that's pain-free. It still hasn't full sunk-in; I've been dealing with this pain since I was 12 years old, so that's 22 years now. It's going to take awhile for this to become real to me. But it's so exciting, and I feel like I have so many adventures ahead of me!

Anyway, all this to say...I'm very happy and life sure is good right now. <3