Even with good news re: blood tests, it's tough not to be scared all the time. I'm always scared about everything that happens. I get pains in my mouth a lot, so naturally, that fucks me up. And I found a bruise on my knee the other night, which nearly sent me into some kind of fit of absolute terror. I woke my husband up at 3 AM because I was freaking out that much.
I'm starting to get really fed up of this fear though. Frustration is starting to take over the anxiety. At least, that's how it was today. That might change tomorrow. Who knows.
I gotta figure out a way to live my life without being paralyzed by fear from every ache and pain that I get.
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