Thursday, 11 April 2013

PMS and cancer together. GOOD TIMES.

I haven't posted in awhile as after only being home for barely two days, I got a fever and had to go back to the hospital. I spent four days in the ER and the "short stay" ward. It was not pleasant. Also, there was no wi-fi there so I didn't have the internet to disctract me (or update anyone with). BLAH. On top of it all, I'm getting my period now. I didn't get my period last month because the doctors stopped it with Lupron, but I'm no longer getting Lupron, so this will be my first time getting my period while cancerfied, so this should be quite the awful adventure. I get awful, AWFUL periods. As in, I throw up, I get migraines, have to miss several days of work (when I'm working), can't stay far from the bathroom and end up in there 20 minutes at a time several times a day, etc...it's so bad that I actually had an ultrasound scheduled in early March to check for endometriosis before I got sick, but then once I got diagnosed with cancer, well...that was that. I actually got an ultrasound whilst in the hospital and they didn't find anything endometriosisy, so I'm not sure what's going to happen with that. Usually at this point of the month I pop a dangerous amount of anaprox and smoke a shit ton of weed, and lately this has been bothering me a LOT because, well, I'm 32 and I kind of care what happens to my liver and lungs. Now it's even more of an issue because my liver and lungs specifically have to be in good condition for my transplant. But what can I do?! I've seen like thirty doctors about my periods and we've just about run out of options at this point, so...*sigh*. I saw a private doctor in January and he prescribed me a type of birth control that supposedly will stop my periods called Micronor, but I have to wait until I'm actually bleeding to take it. My periods are like 9 days of bloating and horrible pain and only a few random days here and there of bleeding, so I have no idea when I'll be able to start the Micronor. For all I know, my period might end up coinciding with my next round of chemo, but the doctor told me if that happens, they'll send me to the ER and give me a shot of something (I forget what) that apparently stops my period within hours. Why can't they just give that to me all the time? I'm never having kids so...yeah. Plus I'm finally probably going to be infertile, especially with the transplant, so YAY. No asshole doctor can use the stupid asshole excuse of "I might change my mind" (seriously, who changes their mind at fucking 32???? I'm not 20, for fuck's sake!), so rip my damn uterus out or do whatever ya gotta do already.

In the meantime, thank the gods for grass.

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