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Boy am I glad to be home.

In other news...bleh. I find that I can be totally cheerful or OK for very long stretches of time. And all of the sudden, the fact that I might die hits me, and it's the most horrible feeling I've ever felt in the whole world. It's not a paralyzing-with-fear feeling the way an anxiety attack is, not even remotely close. It's a feeling of such....bitterness and sadness. I don't even know how to describe it.